new year

hope all had a merry christmas, happy hanukah, kwanzaa, happy new year, all that.

its a new year, time to start something new... i'm growing my hair and thats interesting thus far, we'll see how that goes. im ready for school, actually excited about it... this year, im going to be all about business. one thing that wont change is my love for comedy and music... and if anyone remembers these guys in the group slaughterhouse will know they were lame... not sure when they revamped their entire style... but im impressed. here's one of there new music videos.

'Twas the Night Before Jesus

greatness...

im so tired

just tired... if you've ever been where i am, you know that's all there is to say.

blow

get a wiff of my... blow baby... girl you know you wanna smoke on me

take a hit of my pipe... blow baby... dont be scared, choke on me


first coupe lines... its a beast

hey

hello blog world... long time so see. i havent updated this in a while and i figured i would do a free write of whatever comes to mind. lots of things have happened, changed, whatever, and i'll get into all of it later. but for now, here we go;

living in memphis is weird... almost funny
there are people from suburbs and from inner city "hood"
people that dont worry about and those that dream about having money
and the ladies... prim, proper, and well kept, to the grilled out thugs... lol.
its amazing... but for now i think i might have found my star
i know i havent always been the best with communication and my life has been a mess
between school, work, and dealing with my dad, all i want to do is rest.
she shines bright with her natural hair that i love, so she is kinda like my northstar
where ever im at, i can look up and know where i want to be...
my northstar, not the caddilac, but see
i would imagine when i get the change to be inside her...
she'll ride just as smooth... :)
i digress.
she's smart, pretty, and real... everything that i need to stay on track
its alot to think about, and writing on her... i'll have to come back

memphis has taught me alot since ive been here
and now, im not sure if i'll be here much longer...
i've been robbed(my apartment atleast), meet people from all over
dealt with shady business owners, etc. etc. but its all made me stronger
now where ever my life takes me next, i think i'll be ready.


and thats it for now folks... later

back in the gym

well im back in the gym... and so i begin my quest to be 210lbs of shredded greatness(lol). im well on my way... my legs are still and have always been massive, worked out and my last set of 10 on the leg press was at 855lbs... not too shabby considering the fact i haven't seriously worked my legs in months. dont want to hurt my knees either... but anyways, my weak point i think is my lats... they're strong, but they're not quite where i would like them to be... hopefully with my schedule, i'll be able to get them right. i'll let you guys know how that works... plus, taking in 7000 calories a day is going to be fun.later

bottled water...

just beat it... lol

one of the best beats of the year... still

Pennies Music Video HQ - The Cool Kids from The Cool Kids on Vimeo.

trust

what is a person to do when they have someone they love that doesn't believe anything they say? trust is something that has to be earned, but it gets really old having someone question and second guess everything you say/do... especially when you are telling truth. the truth isn't going to change, no matter how many times you ask me... i know i haven't always been the greatest of persons, but damn... maybe there is more to the problem than just me. and if i question something, im wrong??? lets be fair and realistic.

parents...

i dont think many of you guys that read this actually know me and my parents, but i am sure that some of you can relate...

why do parents commit their child to do something without even see if they want to do it??? especially when that "child" is grown.

i cant answer that question for anything, but my experiences with that are horrid. i get committed to something either i had no idea about and dont want to do, get committed to something i kinda knew about and had not made a decision if i wanted to be involved, or get committed to something i actually knew about before hand and made a decision not to do. any case is wrong in my opinion. and then they will try to guilt you into doing it.... thats what i cant stand the most. "i raised you", "i kept food in your stomach and clothes on your back"... yes, maybe they did do that... but isnt the parent are required to do so???

" im grown now and you dont do shit for me. leave me alone." - what im thinking in my head.

i actually try to avoid letting my parents doing anything for me if i can because knowing my father, he'll use that and hang it over my head for years on end. there is nothing worse than actually having to talk to them and they bring up stuff from 5-10+ years ago.

"why cant they just love me and be there for me when i need them without telling me what to do" - shaun

what could have been...

save me

im feeling this song... and im sure people still have mixed feelings about chris brown, but hey, he isnt the first and wont be the last... i dont condone a man putting his hands on a woman for any reason, but he is still an artist and we can appreciate his work.

they really need to do this movie

listen...

when i ask you to listen to me,
and you start giving me advice,
you have not done what i asked...

when i ask you listen to me
and you begin to tell me why
i shouldn't feel that way,
you are trampling on my feelings...

when i ask you to listen to me
and you feel you have to do something
to solve my problems,
you have failed me, strange as that may seem...

listen...
all that i ask is that you listen,
not talk or do- just hear me...

when you do something for me
that i need to do for myself,
you contribute to my fear
and feelings of inadequacy...

but when you accept as a simple fact
that i do feel what i feel, no matter how irrational
then i can quit trying to convince you
and go about the business
of understanding what's behind my feelings...

so please listen and just hear me...
and if you want to talk,
wait a minute for your turn
-- and i'll listen to you...

author unknown, but whoever wrote it was right on it

what the fuck gm???

i didnt know this before... and i'm sure gm is finding out very very fast as well, but if you get into a new v6 camaro and drive it, then get into a new v8 camaro (doesnt matter which engine)... you will tear it up. people are dropping transmissions left and right. 1st gear is in the same spot as REVERSE in another!!! what the fuck were they thinking??? very bad thing in my opinion... but yeah, be careful... people backing into people at stop lights, and just tearing the cars up thinking they are downshifting...

and on a side note...r.kelly and o.j. got a banger for real... superman high. check it out

her

well i'll be writing my poems again... should be interesting. im thinking of writing a poem, the title will be "her". havent done it yet, but when i get the time to sit and just type, i will.just to give you an idea, i'll write something, cant promise it'll actually be in the poem, but anyways:


i think i've found her...
the one i can look at and my insides stir...
the one i can think about and start to smile...
the one ive been waiting on for a while...
but now,
i think ive found her...


i take care of her and she takes care of me
because of her, i dont think of just me...
like i used to...
and because of her, here stands a better me

her + me = we

summer is here and big changes to come... stay tuned. :)

Happy Birthday to Myself

its a shame, i got more emails and texts from websites and forums i'm a part of about my birthday than friends when i woke up... but its changing as the day goes on. mothers day and my birthday is alot to remember i guess. lol. other than my birthday, everything is everything. kinda anxious about starting school again, but thats another day. later

happy 4-20

and back to work i go...