just beat it... lol

one of the best beats of the year... still

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trust

what is a person to do when they have someone they love that doesn't believe anything they say? trust is something that has to be earned, but it gets really old having someone question and second guess everything you say/do... especially when you are telling truth. the truth isn't going to change, no matter how many times you ask me... i know i haven't always been the greatest of persons, but damn... maybe there is more to the problem than just me. and if i question something, im wrong??? lets be fair and realistic.

parents...

i dont think many of you guys that read this actually know me and my parents, but i am sure that some of you can relate...

why do parents commit their child to do something without even see if they want to do it??? especially when that "child" is grown.

i cant answer that question for anything, but my experiences with that are horrid. i get committed to something either i had no idea about and dont want to do, get committed to something i kinda knew about and had not made a decision if i wanted to be involved, or get committed to something i actually knew about before hand and made a decision not to do. any case is wrong in my opinion. and then they will try to guilt you into doing it.... thats what i cant stand the most. "i raised you", "i kept food in your stomach and clothes on your back"... yes, maybe they did do that... but isnt the parent are required to do so???

" im grown now and you dont do shit for me. leave me alone." - what im thinking in my head.

i actually try to avoid letting my parents doing anything for me if i can because knowing my father, he'll use that and hang it over my head for years on end. there is nothing worse than actually having to talk to them and they bring up stuff from 5-10+ years ago.

"why cant they just love me and be there for me when i need them without telling me what to do" - shaun

what could have been...